Just got back from the bank to close out my daughter's memorial fund and found myself crying. It is the silly things that set it off. Of course, this is the month she died a year ago. Also filed her death certificates into the safe deposit box and maybe that contributed too.
Anyway, thinking about Joanna today and missing her big time! Trying to figure out what to do to memoralize her this month without being morbid. I never really understood when those who had suffered a loss remembered it each year on the date of their death, but I guess I have a new perspective now. Want to make it a celebration, but today it just hurts.
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Art in bed
I'm beginning to think that I'm going to have to figure out how to make art in bed. I knew Christmas was going to be tough, but my the pain and fatigue has been really bad this month (hence no new posts). Working theories from my chiropractor, family and friends is that I need to go to the doctor, my chronic fatigue syndrome might be relapsing (though I don't want to even think about that scary possibility!), and that my body after 12 years of Joanna has realized that it doesn't need to hold it together to take care of her anymore and is throwing in the towel. I need to get to the doctor and get some bloodwork to sort some of it out and pray that maybe I'm just anemic or something. I know my fibromyalgia is a piece of it, since in general this has been a worse year for that. I am seriously trying to figure out how to do art in bed since I'm spending so much time there. Of course that is lying flat on my back, so I'm not sure how I could do anything without straining my arms/shoulders. if anyone has any ideas I'm open.
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